Jo Na Kehe Sku Mein

main apni love story kisi se kah v nahi sakta kiyun ki mari story ki tuest hi kuch yesi hai…par main apna maan ko halka karma chata hun mera ye pyar ki story ko app savi friends use padhe aur mujhe iska matlab samjhne ki help karen. Main bahot khush hua jab mujhe ye website TUMSEHI.COM mila jhaha main apni dil ki baat ko kah sakta hun…. Main ek middle class family se belong karta hun, na hi mai koi nasa karta hun aur na hi mera kuch buri adaten hai, mera manna hai ki nasa wo karta hai jo log apne aap ko sambhal nahi sakta. Main bahot kam baat karta hun jitni jarurat hai utnahi tak hi simit rahta hun, jo mujhse pyar se baat kare main uske sathe pyarse hi baat karta hun aur jo mere se bura bartao kare to main usse aur pyar se pes aata hun. Ye karib 5-6 saal purani baat hai jab mai electronic ki diploma karke nai nai job karne laga tha, karib mera job karte 7-8 month beet chuka tha thik usi samy ek ladki ki v bahali hui ek assistance ke rup mai, us ladki ka nam maine SONA rakha tha. Uski joining ke baad mujhe apni kam main kafi relax mila kiun ki mujhe bahot sari work load diya jata tha. Ye baat maine sona ko vi bola aur use THANKS kaha. Par ye kisko pata tha ki ye ladki meri jindegi ko ek naya mor la de degi, oo kam to thik thak karti thi par mujhe yesa lagta tha ki oo kuch tention main rahti thi par main kavi uski niji jindegi ke bare main interfair nahi kiya. Oo kam main jur gaye isi bich apas main thori bahot baat hoti rahti thi. Kuch din beet jane ke baad wo mujhse puchi ki “App itne kamm baat kiun karte ho, jitna puchta hu utnaka hi jawab dete ho kiun..?” main bas hans deta tha. Ek din wo achanak mujhse puchi ki “App ka koi girlfriend hai…?” maine bola ye baat kiun puch rai ho,, usne boli ki jo pyar main dhoka khaye rahata hai wohi appke jyesa bartab karta hai… meine hans ke jawab diya-“ tumhe to kafi knoladge hai ye payar ke bare main ki payar maine dhoke khan eke baad insane ka kiya hal hota hai wo sam tumhe pata hai” usne fir jawab diya ki mujhe pata hai, maine bola ki ajtak mere life main koi ladki aur nahi mujhe kisise pyar hua…… aur maine baat ko badal diya. 3-4 din baad fir se isi topic pe baat ko uthati hai puchti hai –“Batao na plz koi apke life mai hai” maine bola …”kiya tum pagal ho…. yese bat puchti ho main tumhara senior hun, aur mai bol v chuka hun ki mari yese koi nahi hai aur nahi is jhamela main parna chata hun. Wo fir mu latka ke chali gayi kuch barbarate hue,,,, mujhe bas itna sunai diya ki “ mujhse koi baat nahi karna chata koi mujhe dost nai samjhta…..”. Fir kuch din achchi tarha se kam karne lagi, office main kai ladki aur v thi jo ek sath kaam karti thi par wo mere sath kaam karne main use achcha lagta tha mere sath kisi aur ko kaam karne nai deti thi, par main in sari baton ka dhan nahi deta tha bas kaam pe dhan deta tha. Mere sath beth ke kaam karte karte wo apni baat bhi karti rahti thi, kisi baat ka jabab milta aur bahot sari baat ka jawab nahio v milta tha, fir wo gussa karti thi. Isi tarha se bato bato maine maine v use puch liya ki “ tumhari koi boy friend hai…?” usne udasi se jawab diya ki “tha” maine bola ki tha yani wo…. Usne kaha nai nai wo jinda hai par mujhse breakup ho gya, maine fir pucha ki kiun wo kisi aur se sadi kar liya kiya..? usne jawab diya ki nai…. Usne sari baat khul ke boli ki wo jis ladka se pyar karti thi wo bahot pyse wala uski tha 2-2 company chalta tha aur uski pyar ke bare main uske ghar walo ko v pata tha, uski prem kahani karib 3-4 sall se chal raha tha,uski sadi ke baat bhi hui thi par wo ladka usse sadi karne se inkar kar raha tha ye use tal raha tha but ant main puri tarha se breakup ho chukka tha.. Yani uski love storyulmost khatam ho chuki thi,…. Tabhi mujhe malum hua ki is ladki ko itna keyse pata hai aur wo ye sab kiun bolti hai. Isi baat se wo thori udas v rahti thi but maine use uski apni niji jindegi ke bare mai kabhi interfair nahi karna chaha bas apne kam pe dhyan deta tha. Jhan tak mujhe pata tha ki pyar ek bisswas ki pratik hai, pyar feelings se bharpur hoti hai, iski gahrai asman jeyse ananta hai jiski koi aant nai aur nahi map hai yesa mera khana hai. Isi tarha SONA ne apni sari baat mujhe bata di aur apne app ko bahot nicha dikhane lagi, Jayse uski jindegi khatam ho gayi ho, har pal udas rahne lagi. Ek din maine pucha kiya baat hai jab se tum mujhe apni sari biti baat batye tab se itni udas kiu ho itni apne apko chota kiun manne lagi kiya baat hai…? Usne boli ki kuch nai, fir dubara puchne par boli ki “apko main apne pichli jindegi ke bare main batadiya usse app mujhe galat ladki samajhne lage ho na…isiliye mujhe thik nahi laga rahi hai, par main kabhi bhi jhut nai bolti jo maan main tha wo sab maine baata diya” uski baat sunke maine thora muskuraya aur bola ki “ tum apne app ko itni choti maat karo tumne apni dil ki baat mujhse share kiya iss main tumhe galat nahi balki main apne apko is kabil samjha ki tum mujhse ye sab batayi. Par ek baat hai ki… Tum itni udas mat raha karo” usne kaha ki “ab main kiya karu kese apne dil ko samjhaun, main jab ye sochta hun tab mujhe lagta hei ki meri jindegi ki safar ab khatam ho gayee hai” . uski baat sun ke mujhe yesa laga ki wo ab apna himmat har chuki hai, apne appko kisi ke samne khara kar nai pati thi aur ab sochti thi ki sari baat mujhe batane ke baad uski ceractor mere samne v gir chuki…. But main yesa kuch nai sochta tha,kiuki isme uski koi galti nai thi , ab ladka agar is traha karega to isme us ladki ki koi galti nahi hai. Maine use is baat pe bola ki “ tum ye sochna chor do ki tumse koi dhoka diya hai, tumhare feelings ke sath khelwad kiya hai, jindegi itnahi main khatam nahi hoti hai apne appko us kabil banao ki tumhe dhoka dene wale tumse dubara face to face hone ka himmat na kar sake, use v lagne lage ki tumhe chor kar wow bahot bari galti kiya hai, aur tum jitna udas rahogi utnahi problem create hoga khus raha karo, akhir tumhara pyar dhoka nai diya dhoka us insane ne diya jise tum pyar karti thi, apne app ko strong banao” usne ye sari baat sun ke muskurayi aur apne kaam main lag gai. Isi tarha se wo meri baat ko Sirius liya aur us gaam ko bhulna chaha, main v usse baat karne laga. Ab ye kisko pata tha ki wo ab us gaam ko bhulne ke liye mara sath legi. Ek din indirectly bol v diya ki mein appko bahot like karti hun, appki pyar bhari baatein, apki samjhane ki tarika mujhe bha gaya hai…. Maine bola ab tum fir se galti karne ja rai hai ye sab sochna chor do, maine to tumhe apne appko sambhale ki upai bataya iska matlab ye nai ki tum fir se wohi rasta ko apnao. Usdin to jyada baat nai hui par mujhe uski baato se ye jarur pata chal gya tha ki uska dil ab mujhpe ane lagi hai aur main usse dur rahne ki kossi karta raha, kiun ki mujhe apne bare mein pata tha ki main pyar byar main nahi parna chata main to arrenge karke hi shadi karna chata tha jisse ghar wale v khus aur main v khus. Isi tarha uski adatein badal ti gayi mujhse nazdiki barane ki kosis karne lagi, par main uska reply nahi deta tha… isse wo apna mu banaleti thi ek do din gussa se baat bhi nai karti thi fir wo apne ap sari baat bhul ke fir baat karne lagti thi, mujhe wo apne boss se dant v sunwati thi gussa se par main hans ke sahleta tha kiun ki mujhe pata tha ki wo kiya chati thi, wo chati thi main uske sath ladun jhagra karun par mujhe laga ki agar maine uske sath ladai jhagra karun to ye pyar main badalne ko der nai lagega isiliye main chup rahta tha. Is trah se 7 month beet gya bahot kosis kiya par mujhe wo apna karib nai la payee mujhe bahot bura bhala v kahti thi ki “ app bahot ghamdi ho, app apne apko jyada smart samjhte ho, app kiya appse v kitna smart ladka hai jo main agar ek isara karun to ladka ka line lag jayega”. Is tarha bahot kuch bolti thi par main ek kan se sunta aur dusri se nikal deta tha. Is tarha jab sari kosis ke baad nakami ho gayi tab fir se rona dhona suru kardi thi, mujhe lagta tha ki wo apne app ko akdam akeli samjhne lagi thi ya wo depretion ki aor ja rai thi. Ek din wo medical se kuch medicine laye aur tea ke sath kha li aur medicine lene ke baad wo pasina pasina ho gayi fir kuch ghanto baad fir thik ho gayee, meine usse pucha ki kiya hua tabiyat thik hai usne kaha ki “Usse appko kiya mein thik rahun ya na rahu” fir maine pucha kiya medicine liya jo tumhe itni pasina pasina kar diya..? usne boli “kuch nai”. Maine medicine ki reppar ko apne pass rakha tha aur usi reppar se pata lagaya ki medicine kiya hai. Wo medicine Spasmoplus kuch yesi naam ki thi aur iss medicine mein nassa v hoti thi… aur medical wale v bola ki ye medicine jyada lena kharab hai… Fir mujhe yesa laga ki ye ladki apne appko khatam kar degi agar iska hath na thama too, uss samy se mera dil v uske bare maine sochne laga ki ye ladki is kadar mujhe chane lagi hai mujhe laga wo mujhse sach mein pyar karne lagi hai aur ye ek sachcha pyer hai. Ye soch ke maine apne apko uske karib le jane ka fesla liya. Apna izhar sunnane se phale maine kafi sari baat usse cleare karma chaha jyse uski biti jindegi ke bare main kiun ki wo sari baat mujhse khul ke bata to diya apne maan ki sari sachchai bata di thi. Par maine usse ye bataya ki “dekho tumhari pahle ki jindegi main koi tha aur wo ladka na to shadi kiya aur nahi apna locetion change kiya, agar mein tumhe apna pyar manlu aur usse use zalesi ho aur tumhe fir trochar kare tab tum kiya karogi…?” Usne jawab diya ki “wo ab meri jindegi main kavi nai ayegi”. Maine bola thik hai nahi ayegi par agar tum apna nirnay badal dugi tab to main kahi ka nai rahunga .. usne kaha yesa jinda rahte huye nai hoga. Fir maine bola ki “ thik hai tum ajj mere liye itna tadpi mujhe pane ke liye mara pyar pane ke liye, main bahot khus nasib hun ki koi ladki mere liye itna roo sakti hai itna pyar karsakti hai” ye baat kahte khate mera ankh bhar ayaa aur mera ankho main ansu agayee, ansu dek kar wo v rone lagi aur hum dono ek dusre ko apne bahon main jakar liya aur main apne bilakhti sur main bola ki “main ajj se apne apko apne ish dil ko tumhare habale kar diye please ise takhlif nahi dena” usne v bilakhti sur maine boli ki “main jab tak jinda hun tab tak apka sath nai chorungi har kadam pe apka sathe dungi aur is dil ko hamesha samhalke rakhungi jindegi bhar maine apko pyar karti rahungi” I love you ….. Ilove you too….. Isi taraha se meine apne dil ko khuli kitab ki tarha use pes kar diya, hamara love story ki gari bahot achchi tarha se pattri pe dorne lagi. Hum office ke chutti ke baad 1-2 ghante mobile pe romentic bate karte the, weekoff mein melte vi the ek dusre ka sath pakar hum dono bahot khush the. Pyar mein ladna jhagarna fir ruthe ko manana v hota tha. Gussa v karti thi par jyda der nai kuch pal ke liye fir use manane par asani se man vi jati thi aur jab main guss karta tha uspar to main asani se nai manta ek do din tak batt nahi karta tha, na koi call aur nahi office main baat, uski lakho kosis ke baad v nai manta tha. jab wo har jati thi tab wo apna khana pina band kardeti thi rone lagti thi fir uski ankho se ansu dekh kar main rah nahi pata tha fir usse sari jhagra khatam karke use gale laga leta tha. Us waqt lagta tha ki ye meri jindegi hai iske bina main aduhra hun aur wo mere bina. Wo aksar kahi ekant main jana pasand karti thi jaha hamare pyar ke bich koi na aye wo chati thi ki main kebal usi ki tariff karta rahu aur wo sunti rahe, hum log aksar park mein mila karta tha ek bare chaya dar wale tree ke niche… mein uski godi main sar rakh ke aur wo apne ungli se mera sar ko shlate huhe mithi mithi baton mein kho jate the. Kavi kavi park ke street light ki raste pe main uski kandho pe aur wo uski sar mere kandho pe rakh kar walk v kiya karte the. Isi tarha aksar hum park mein milne aya karte the jo wapas ghar lotne ki bari ati thi tab ek dusre ko mithi mithi kiss karke aur pyar bhar hug deke use apne ghar ki aur chor diya karte the. Wo mujhse bahot pyar karti thi esa lagta tha ki wo mujhe ek pal ke liye v dur nahi rahna chati thi office se ghar lotne ke badd v wo mobile pe miss call karti thi aur mujhe uski reply dena parta tha agar kisi karan main uska reply nai kar pata to fir mera kher nai. Mujhse wo bilkul alg nai hone deti mujhe office se chutti v nahi lene deti kiun ki wo akeli par jayegi is baat ki dar se, yesa lagta tha ki wo ab mere bina bilkul ji nahi payegi, mujhe lagta tha ki wo mujhe apni sans bana chuki thi. Isi tarha hum ek dusre ke bahot karib ho chuke tha jaha se hum piche nahi hat skta tha aur main v use bahot pyar karne laga tha mujhe v unke bina kuch achcha nahi lagta tha. Humara pyar isi tarha salamat rahe main bhagwan se prathna karta tha aur pyar age barta gya… “Teri har ada mohabbat si lagti hai,ek pal ki judai sadiyon si lagti hai, Pehle nahi socha tha ab sochne laga hun’ zindegi ke har lamhe mein teri zarurat si lagti hai…” Jab hum dono ek dusre ki jarurat ban chuke tab hum kisika koi parba nahi karte the, main uske ghar v jane laga uske ghar ke sare sdasya se mera parichit huye aur mere ghar pe v use jante the mujhe bahot achcha laga uski famly ke sare logo ko, ye v baat sona ne bata chuki thi ki wo mujhse shadi karegi, matlab hamare pyar manjil pane ki raho pet hi, par na jane humare pyar ko kisi ki nazar lag gaye. Achanak job hum dono market se ghar lot rahe the us somy koi hum logo ko follwo kiya aur yesa laga ki koi humare bich araha hai, par follow karne wala ladka ko sona janta tha kiuki koi bar hum park main bethte aur 5-10 min main hi ghar jane ki bat karti, koi resturent main jate bina kuch khaye uthne ko kahti, aur apni hunto ki muskurahat v gayeb ho jati thi. Aur puchne par kahti thi ki tabiyat thik nai hai ghar chalo, bas maine use ghar pe drop kardeta tha. Job isi trah 5-6 bar hua tab maine use kaha ki kiya baat hai tum ajkal bahot parisan rahti ho thik se bat v nai karti ho. Wo sirf yehi khati thi ki pata nai kiya hua hai. Tab se maine uski har harkat ko thori serious lene laga aur uski parisani ke bare main janne ki kosis karne laga. Ek din fir usse leke park mein gya tha aur banch pe bath kar batein kar rahe the tab ek ladka bar bar humare ird gird ghum rahe the yani hame disturb kar rahe the to hum waha se street rut pe walk karne lage wohan v hamare piche piche ane laga fir hum woha se ghar ki aur nikal para lakin wohi ladka puri rasta hum duno ko follwo kar raha tha. Is baat ko maine notice kiya aur iska matlab samjhne ki kosis karne laga. Humara pyar karib 1 saal se upar ho chuka tha. Maine us ladka ko janne ki kosis karne laga jo hamara follwo kiya karta tha, kuch din baad mujhe akhir pata chal hi gya ki wo kon tha, wo ladke sona ki colony ka hi ladka tha aur use wohi ladka meri sona ke upper nazar rakhne ko kaha tha jise wo phle pyar kiya karta tha. Jis baat ka dar tha akhir wohi hua ab wo apne pyar ki khusi ko dekh kar use jalesi hone laga, meine bato bato se sona ko pucha v tha ki kiya baat hai tumhe koi ladka partisan to nahi kar raha hai na “wo kahti thi nai to”. Akhir uski labs kuch kahti aur uski dil kuch aur. Wo mujhse sari baat chupane lagi apne parisani ke bare maine mujhse share nai karti thi aur karti v keyse kiun ki uske parsani wo uska bichra hua pyar tha. Mujhe is baat ki bhanak lag chukka tha ki wo ladka ab sona ka mobile pe call v karne laga tha uske lakho inkar karne ke babjud v… wo ladka use kuch jyadahi karib ane ki kosis karta gya. Jab sona ne uske kisison ko nakam kardiya tab ek din wo usi ladka ko jo hame follwo kiya karta tha usne mujhe milne ki kosis kiya aur mila v main v usse baat karna chaha par wo to mujhe chetawani dene aya tha ki “tum sona se dur raho aur sona se… koi aur pyar karta hai… tumhari bhalai ke liye usse dur raho” tab mujhe puri baat samjh main aagyi ki ye sab kiun ho raha hai, maine v uski baat ka rply diya ki “ jab tak mera pyar mere sath hai main kisika koi parbha nahi karta” ye sunne ke baad wo chala gya. Dusre din jab hum office aya to sona kuch jyadahi chintit thi, maine pucha kiya baat hai, usne bina jabab diye bahar ki aur nikal pari, aur main apne kaam pe lag gya. Kuch samy baad fir mere paas aye aur mujhe sorry boli aur khane lagi main bohat parisan hun, mujhe pata to chal gya tha ki uski parisani kon hai par maine ye uske mu se sunna chata tha par wo batati v to kayse batati koiyn ki isbat se mujhe bahot taklif hoti ye soch ke wo mujhe kuch nai batati. Tab maine use dhire se bola ki “ sona mujhe tumhari sari parisani ke bare main pata chal chukka hai tum ye maat socho ki tum tum tention main rahogi aur maine uske bare main na pata lagau” ye baat sun ke wo chonk uthi aur boli “ kiya pata chala hai..?” meine bola wo sab kuch jiske liye tum partisan ho, phle tum ye batao ki tum mera sath dogi na usne kha bilkul maine hamesa appke sath hun. Fir Maine use bataya ki kal ek ladka mujhe chetabani dene aya tha ki maine tumhare raste se hat jaun nahi to mere liye achcha nahi hoga, ye sun ke sona aur darne lagi aur uski tention aur badhne lagi, uski tention ko dekh ke maine bola ki “tumhe tention lene ki koi jarurat nahi agar tum mere sathe ho to hame usse darne ki koi baat nahi” tab wo apne app ye sochne lagi ki mere chalet wo ladka mujhe kuch nuksan na pouchaye, ab sona mujhse ye baat sunke aur jyada ghabrane lagi…. Isi tarha se uske maan ke andar dar pyda ho gayi aur us dar ko dur karne ke liye uski purani pyar se batein karne lagi taki wo mera kuch bigar na sake. “Par use kiya pata tha ki jab jindegi hi ne apna muh ghuma diya to dard ki kiya majal ki wo mujhe dard de de” isi tarha wo mujhe sef rakhne ke liye wo mera pyar ko apne sath rakh ke uski purani pyar se ladne lage, kiun ki wo ladka ka beground sahi nahi tha, sona is baat ko leke dar gayee thi. Isi tarha se sona mujhe pyar ka tasalli deti gaye aur maine apna pyar pane ki kosis karta gya, par labs pe pyar dil main tention leke rahti thi , mujhe laga ki wo ab meri nahi hai wo mujhe jhuti dilasha de rahi hai taki mujhe taklif na ho, par sayed use pata nahi tha ki jab apna pyar ki har khushi se main khush hota hun aur dukh se dukhi to uske dil ke bare maine mujhe kyse pata nahi hoga. Sari baat main jan jata tha ki wo kis abastaha main hai, job uski duriya jyadahi barne lagi tab maine ek nirnai liya ki… ab ish par ye ush par honahi hai… chaye kitna hi muskil ho. Tab maine sona se khul ke baat kiya ki “dekho sona main tumhe bahot pyar karta hun jindegi ka phala pyar tum ho, main nahi chata ki tum mujhse dur ho jao par maine ye chata hun ki tum khush raho tumhe agar tumhara bichra pyar milgaya hai tu koi baat nai tum apne pyar ke pass ja sakti ho mujhe is baat se takhlif hogi par tumhare khusi hi maeri khusi, main us gaam ko bhul jaunga ki tum mere sathe yesa kiya…. balki us baat ko main yaad karunga ki maine apne pyar ka pyar se milaya hai, kiun ki main pyar china nahi hasil karna chata aur wo jabardasti nai liya jata, agar tumhara dil apne purana pyar ki aur jarahi hai to main nahi rokunga chaye mujhe kitnahi taklif ho….. sayed ye duniya ka phala story hoga ki lovestory main yesa tuwest ata ho” is baat ko wo inkar kar diya aur kahne lagi nai maine kisi aur ke pass nai jaungi mein apse pyar karti hun aur karti rahungi. Ye to uska dar kah raha tha use laga ab main uska ek sahara tha agar ye usse bichar jaye to sayed kavi dubara na mile is dar se wo mujhe apne se dur nahi karna chati thi, kiun ki wo apne purana pyar pe biswas nahi karti thi bass wo darke mare wo usska pyar ko Kabul kiya tha. “Ishq ne hume rula diya Jis par marte the usne hi hame rula diya Hum to unki yadon mein hi ji letein, magar oo to yadon mein hi jahar ghol diya” Is tarh se wo na to mujhe apne se dur kar rahi thi aur nahi maine use dur kar pa raha tha kiun ki maine use sachche dil se pyar kiya tha uski parisani mujhe dekhi nahi jati thi, maine apne app ko sakt kiya aur uska sath dene laga sayed main uska sath nahi deta to ajj wo jinda nahi rahti apne apko mar dalti, is tarh se maine apne pyar ko dur hote huye dekhta raha, par sona ki jindegi main mano musibat ka pahar gir para tha use lgata tha ki us ladka se pyar karke bahot bari galti ki ho, kiun ki is tara se uski colony main un dono ki charcha hone lagi us charcha ko chupane ke liye kai jhut sach ka samna karna parta tha. Aur main apni tanhai ki jindegi jine laga. Indino humara milna julna v khatam ho gaye bass sirf office ki 8 hrs mai jo baat karti thi wohi baat hoti sirf. Sona khati thi main tumhe jindegi bhar pyar karta rahunga, apka pyar mere dil main sada ke liye basa rahega, par kiya fayda ye to mujhe khush karne ke liye tha, main bahot udas ho gya apni udasi mitane ke liye weekoff main ek mere city ka paas ki village pe jata tha jaha ek pipale ka per tha aur uske samne ek talab usi ke niche subha se dopahar tak maine apne pyar ki bare main sochta tha ki”mujhe kiysa din dekhna pad raha hai ki….main ye baat nahi kisi se share kar apne dil ko halka kar sakta, sirf apne app mein ghuta rahta tha , rota rahta tha par mujhe sambhalne wala koi nahi tha, kai bar mujhe mammi papa ne is baat ke bare toka v tha par main nazar andaz kar diya kuch bolne ki himmat hi nahi juta paya, sayed mein us samy sari dil ki baat kah deta to ajj tak mera dil main wo kasak nahi hota. Par mera takdir main yehi likha tha. Wo nahi mujhse alag ho pati aur na main use is halat main akeli chor pata tha, kiun ki main kai bar kosis bhi kiya tha ki ab main uske bare mai nahi sochunga ab wo meri jindegi main ane wali nahi hai, yehi soch ke main ek bar use kha diya tha par maine ya baat kahte kahte maan bhar aya aur ro para tha maine use rote rote kaha ki ”SONA ab bass karo tum ab meri nahi rahi kiun ki tum ab apne pichla pyar ke bare main soch rahi ho aur isme ab mera koi kam nahi hai, tum samjh sakti ho meri dil ki hal ko, main kis tarha apna jindegi gujar raha hun, main ab tumhara sath nahi de sakta, tumhe sari baat batane ke baad main tumhe apna dil diya ki tum mujhe kavi dhoka nai dogi aur ye v bola tha ki tumhara pehla pyar agar hamare bich aye to kiya tu mujhe chor dogi, tab tumhi boli thi ki nai yesa nahi ho sakta main jindegi bhar appke sath rahungi, par ajj kiya hua ye soch sakti ho ki main kis abstha main hun, meine tumhe pyar kiya main hamesa tumhe khush dekna chata hun, mujhse ab nahi hoga……” ye sunne ke baad wo ro padi aur chup rahi kuch kaha nahi payee, main bas khake wohase chala gya. “Dil mein patthar rakh kar ke unse mu mora humne, khud ko tod ke unka dil toda humne, na jane kitne sitam saha tere is dil ne, par kuch gila v na kar paya humne..” Is tarha se wo v mujhse bat karna chor diya, office aneke baad good morning kahti thi ab wo v kahna chor diya, matlab yesa karne laga ki wo mujhe janti hi nahi, mai v use disturb nahi karta tha…. wo apna kam karti aur chali jati thi. Karib 4-5 din bitne ke baad fir se uski udasi chera nazar ata hai, mujhe achcha nai lagta uska udasi chera par mai kuch nai blota tha use. Uski udasi ke bare main apne dusre dost se pata karta tha kiun ki uski purana pyar ke bare main charo tarp charcha feyal chukka tha, to koi na koi uska bare bata hi deta tha, uska udasi ka karan ye tha ki jis ladka se wo pyar karta tha wo use apne ungli ke isaro pe nacha raha tha kiun ki uski colony mai uska pyar ke sath shadi hone ki baat feyal chuki thi aur usse shadi karne ki koi nam nisan v nahi thi, ab sona ke pas na to mujhse pyar jatane ki rasta hai aur nahi wo ladka usse shadi karta hai. Isi tarha se uski jindegi main kale badal cha gayee ab wo na to mujhe apna sakti aur na hi bhar mujhse mil sakti kiun ki agar wo mujhse miljul barhata to uski carector pe daag lag jata our tarha trah ke baat uthne lagti. Mujhe v gussa aya ye sun ke ki wo ladka use parisan kar raha tha SONA akeli pad gayi thi, wo office ati to thi but ek dam murjha gayi thi… Is tarha 10 din par hone ke baad wo mujhse kha ki “ mujhse gussa ho” maine bola “ Nahi to, main tum par gussa kiu karu ye to mera nasib hai aur tumhar diya hua gift” usne boli ki ab apto sab janhi chuke ho ki main kis tarha se hu ab aphi batao main kiya karu main to ye sochke pyar kiya ki wo ab meri jindegi mei dubara nahi ayega kiu ki wo pyar nahi pyisa chata hai oo mujhse pyar nahi karta, mai cha ke v ab mein apko apna nahi sakta kiun ki uske nam ka danka hamare colony main baz chuka ab mei agar ghar main bolun ki main apse shadi karungi to meri carector pe daag lagegi ki ladki ki kitni boyfriend hai ek se maan nahi varta, tarha trah ke baat uthne lagegi. Mujhe pata hai agar wo ladka mujhse shadi kar v leta to main chain se ji nahi paungi jite ji mar jaungi, agar app mera phla pyar hote to main kitni sukhui hoti par mere nasib v tut chuki hai, mujhe lagta hai sari jindegi mujhe rona hi padega” ye sun ke maine usse baat kiya kafi din baad usse baat hui, uske bato se laga ki sahi mai uske maan mein mere liya pyar tha but uski problem ko dekh kar main use galat v nahi kha pata. Maine bas kaha ki dekho ab tu ye fesla tum khud logi ki tum kiya karogi kiun ki us ladka ko tum achchi tarha se janti ho ye tumhare paribar janta hoga. Ye bat sunke wo fir boli ki “ hamare ghar ke sare log usse shadi karne ke liye mana kar rahe hai kiun ki main uske sath khush nahi rah paungi ye sabhi kahte hai” to fir problem kiya hai, main nahi kahunga ki tum mujhse shadi karo par tumhe agar lagta hai ki uske sath khus nahi rahogi to use bhul jao aur apni nai jindegi suru karo. Fir wo bolti hai “ maine to wohi kiya tha ki use bhul ke nai jindegi suru karu par maine apka dil v dukha diya apmujhse kitna pyar karte the kitna khyal rakhte the iske liye main apne app ko kavi maaf nahi kar paungi” uske baat sunke main ro pada aur kahne laga ki baat to tum sahi boli ki main tumse bahot pyar karta hun par kiya karu ab tum is bare maine tum kisi ko kah ke apni maan halka karleti ho but main ghut ta rata hun, tumhe dant v nahi sakta aur tum par gussa v nahi kar pata akhir pyar to pyar hai. Ye sun ke wo mujhe SORRY kahti hai…… aur bolti hai mujhe apka sathe chaye nahi to main maar jaungi mein apke bina ji nahi paungi, ye sunke mein kaha ki “ Tum mujhe chor ke ji nahi paogi par yesa karna hoga kiun ki ab hum dono ek nahi ho payenge, tum ek bar socho mere bare main, ki main kis tarha se hu mujhe jis baat pe gussa ana chaye us baat pe main tumse baat kar raha hun aur maine v tumhare bina rah nahi paunga par mujhe rahna hoga mere sar pe jimmedari ki bojh ladi hui hai, ab agar mai tumhara sath dene laga to mai khatam ho junga mujhse ye bardas nahi hoga.” Par wo nahi mani rone lagti thi aur mujhe uske ankho pe ansu achcha nahi lagta tha, ye hi meri kamjori thi aur uski sath jude rah gya…. Ab to wohi hua ki apne pyar se na dur rah pata aur nahi uske jyada najdik ja pata na jaun to v problem aur jaoun to aur zyada problem, bas main is problem ko pita gya aur uski har harkat ko maaf karta gya. Main use ye soch ke sath diya taki wo apne apko sambhal paye aur koi galat kadam na uthaye. Par yesa karte karte meri halat bohat kharab hota gya, kiun ki agar main use chor deta to sayed ye yaadein ban ke rah jata par usse jude rahne se mujhe bahot bura lag raha tha, uske pyar ke bare main sunna aur tarha trah ki bate sunna padta tha, ab meine pyar kiya tha ab mujhe v zalesi to hogi hi, par main ye kisiko dikhata.. bas apne ap mein hi chupa rahta tha, Ek din sona ne badi khusi khusi aye aur khane lagi ki meri shadi usse tay ho gayee, ye sunke meri dil chakna chur ho gya pata nahi kiun jab ki mujhe pata tha ki usse mera shadi nahi hogi fir v,.. apne app ko bari muskil se sambhala aur use congretulation bola… usne jawab diya thanks. Aur kahne lagi ki ap nahi hote to ye nahi ho pata. Maine kaha ki “ye to tumhara nasib hai jo tumhe apna phla pyar mil gya, ab kisi ka ye v nasib nahi hota ki pyar rahne ke wabjud pyar nahi mil pata” achaha hua wo khus rahe yehi dua karta tha. Ab sona ka to sari problem dur ho gaye ab wo apne jindegi ko sazake ji sakta hai aur har ichcha ko puri v kar sakta hai. Is tarha se wo relax ho gaye but main bechein rahne laga, ab to wo mujhse bhala pyar kiun jateygi bas kahti rahti thi ki main apko jindegi bhar nahi bhulugi. Par main to ekela padgya apne pyar ki kahni soch soch ke rota rahta tha tanhai ki jindegi ji raha tha. Fir maine apne apko strong banana ka nirnai liya ki mujhe uske beggar jina hai, isliye maine use ek din kaha ki “ sona dekho tumhe tumhara pyar mil chukka hai ab tum khush ho, par tumhe pata hei na ki maine v tumse dil lagya tha, to tum mujhpar ek maharbani karo ki tum ab ye job chor do, kiun ki main ye job nahi chor sakta, tum to kuch din ki mehman ho, agar tum v mujhse thori pyar kiya hai to plz tum ye job chor do.” Ab wo mere baat pe gor kiya aur mera dono gaal ko dabate huye kaha ki “ main v ab ye job chorna chati hun, main bahot jaldi job chor dungi, ab khush” wo is tarha se baat ka rply kiya jeise wo mujhpar bahot bari yesan kar rahi hai. Is tarha se month ka end hote hi wo apna resignation de diya. Jate jate wo kafi kuch yadd kiya ansu bahaye aur sab se bida le ke hum sab se dur chali gayi. Ab meri jindegi v sunsan hogyee, jaha uska roz chera dekhta tha ab wo v band ho gya, main dil ko manata tha ki wo mera thi hi nahi to uske piche ansu kiya bhana ye khake apne man ko sant karta tha, par ye dil usse milne ko, dekhne ko bechain rahta tha , ye pata hone ke babjud v, kiun ki mara dil puri tarha se biswas nahi kiya tha ki bakey main wo ladka usse shadi karega, kahina kahi galat ho raha hai isbaat ki bhanak mujhe lag chukka tha. Par maine jo socha akhir wohi hua. Kiun ki wo ladka sona se shadi karega par uske liye uske ghar walo ko dahej yani uski dimand puri karni paregi. Ab wo yesa dimand kiya ki uske ghar wale us dimand ko puri nahi kar pata. Isse puri tarha se sabit ho chuka ki wo usse sadi karne ke liye nahi sona ko mujhse dur karne ke liye hi yesa kaha tha…ki wo sona se sadi karega. Uska kaam to pura ho gya sona ko mujhse dur karke, par sona ki to ab wohi dasha hone laga ab wo na to mera sahara le sakti aur nahi mere paas aasakti, ye janne ke baad mein aur bechain ho gya, kavi kavi lagta tha ki main jake usse shadi kar lun aur khai dur jake apne nai jindegi suru karu, par main yesa v nahi kar sakta tha… Ek din achanak sona ka call aaya aur recived kartehi hi mujhe dante laga mujhpar gussa karne laga “ ab to app khush ho mujhe apne paas se dur karke, par gayee apke kaleje main thandak, ab app ji rahe ho na mere bina khushi khushi” ab ye to mujhe pata hai ki maine uske bina keyse ji raha hun. Uski baton se laga ki uski jindegi v kati patang ki tarha ho gayee. Ab wo fir se mera sath lena chaha kiun ki uski har musibaat main mein yaad ata tha, aur main uski problem se dur nahi bhag pata tha. Meine use finali bol diya ki dekho ab uski chinta choro aur nai tor pe jindegi suru karo,…. maine us samay bol v diya ki tum mujhse shadi kar lo “usne kaha sayed ye ho sakta… par main jab tak jinda rahungi tab tak apse baat karungi aur apke ghar v milne ke liye aungi” maine baat sunke hans pada ki jab ladki ki shadi hojati to wo apne femly ko chor ke tum mujhse baat karogi aur mujhse miloge v.yani tum aur ek jindegi ko barbad karogi kiya, yesa kavi nahi karna meine ye kaha ke baat ko khatam kiya”. Uski baat to mujhe v achcha laga tha kiun mara maan bhi usike sath rahna chata tha, par wo practical nahi hai, is tarha se maine usse puri tarha se alag nahi ho paya, bas wo jab v bulati thi main uske paas na chate huye v uske karib ajata tha… mano ki mera dil usse dur hone ki liye kavi satha nahi diya tha, par mujhe usse dur rahne ki adapt dalni paregi ye baat apne dil ko khane ke baad v nai sunti…… Is tarha se uske ghar wale chori chupke uske liye ladka dhudna suru kiya kiun ki uski purana pyar ko pata chalta to wo uski shadi torne ke liye pahuch jata tha. Kai rista tod v chukka tha. Is tarha se uske liye WB ke koi ladka talash kiya aur sari baat tay ho gayee. Sona har riste ke bare main wo batati thi ki wo yesa thaw o oyesa tha har ek ke sath mujhse tally karti thi, par jab WB ki ladka se jab shadi tay hua tab ussne mujhe nai batayee, mujhe kisi aur ke paas se jankari mila,… ye khabar sunke main khush hua ki ab uski life set ho jayegi par dukh ish baat ka hua ki wo mujhe ye baat chupayee. Maine uske ghar gaya usse baat karne ke liye, sam ka samy tha uski choti sister aur wo dono ghar pe thi, jab uski sis chai banana ke liye kitchen gayee tab main apna baat suru kiya .”sona tum mujhe kiun nahi bataye apne rista ke bare main, kiya mein tumaheri shadi me koi badha deta, ulta mujhe khusi hoti ki ab tumhare har problem dur hane wali hai ab to tumhe khush hona chaiye” usne palt ke jabab diya ki “ app to khus hongehi kiuki app se picha jo chut rahi hai, app to yehi chate the ki main app se hamesa hamesa ke liye dur chali jaun” ab uski baat sunke main woha ek paal nahi ruk paya aur bina chaye piye wohan se nikal gaya.ye hamari antim mulakat tha…. Main gharpe uske baato ko gour se sochne laga ki akhir ye ladki chati kiya hai na to mujhe karib ane deti aur nahi mujhe apne se dur karti. Meine us raat ek paal v so nahi paya, yesa laga ki meri jindegi se koi chij tut ke alag ho raha ho, bohat roya hun ush raat, hum dono ek dusre se pyar rahne ke wabjud hum pyar jata nahi pya aur ek ho na sake. Main har paal mujhe usika yaad ata hai, uski baat sunke main apne apko sambhal hi nahi pata tha bas akele akele rota rahta tha…. Isi tarha se uski shadi ke din karib ata gya aur meri bechaini badta gya, aur wo ye soch ke mujhe call v nahi karti…. ki mujhe khusi mila ki uski shadi kisi aur se ho rai hai, par wo galat thi,… Maine uski yaad na aye uske liye part time job karne laga apne apko 14 hars bussy rakhne laga. Isi tarha jab uski shadi ke din subha subha uski call aye aur mujhe kahne lagi ki “ jaanu I am realy very sorry ki main apse batamizi se pes aya, apko to pata hai ki main kitna pyar karta hun apse pls mujhe maaf kar do… aur pls meri shadi main me apko dekhna chata hu pls app mere samne rahoge mujhe apse himmat milti hai” maine han kaha ke call ko khatam kiya.” Main uske har khoyais ko pura kiya par sayed uski ye antim khoyesh main pura nahi kar paunga, kiun ki main bahot kamjor ho gya tha main uske samne khada nahi rah paunga aur mujhe sambhalne wola v koi nai tha, maine uske liye ek nekless banwoya tha jab hamara pyar ki gadi patri pe thi aur hamare shadi maine use gift karta par nato hamare shadi huyee aur nahi use dene ka sahi waqk mila, to main us nekless ko achchi se pack kiya aur uske sathe weadings card laga ke ek dost ke hath bejh diya, aur uski shadi ki sazaot ko v maine dur se dekha aur dekhte hi rah gya…. “Dard se hath na milate to or kiya karte, Gam ke ansu na bahate to aur kya karte, Usne maangi thi humse roshni ki dua, Hum khud ko na jalate to aur kiya karte…” Us shadi ke raat se mere maan main ek sabal ban ke rah gya ki ye kya tha ye soch ke us raat fut fut ke roya tha par nahi dil jawab de pata tha aur nahi dimag, us raat se ajj tak dil uska hi intazar karta hai ye pata hone ke babjud ki uski shadi ho chuki hai, ajj tak ye meri jindegi main sawal bana ke rah gya ki mari ye prem kahani mein mujhe pyar mila tha ye dhoka….. mein is prem kahni ke phle pyar ko main biswas aur shrdha ke rup main janta tha par ab mujhe lag raha hai ki pyar matlab tyag aur balidan hai.. I MISS U. “Ye raat itni tanha kiyu hoti hai.? Apne kismet se sabko sikayat kiu hoti hai.? Ye kismet v ajib khel khelti hain, jise hum paa nahi sakte, Usi se hi mohabbat kiu hoti hain.?” Dosto plz meri ye khani pe kiya tha pyar ye dhoka pls mujhe batana kiun ki sayed main apne dil ko bata saku ki ye kiya tha, meri dil ajj v uski har ahat ko pahchan leta hai uski har adatein meri samne parchai ki tarha ruk jati hai. Ap sabko binti hai ki koi galat comment na kare taki mujhe bura lage jo sahi hai wohi likhe pls….. Main Thanks khana chahunaga TUMSEHI.COM ko jo mujhe apne dil ki baat ko rakhne ki jagha diya, hosake iske jariye mujhe apna sawalon ka jawab mil jaye. Aur app savi padhne walon ka v mera tahey dil se dhanybad…. A True Love Story

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